I’ve mentioned before that my husband is away going to school in another province. He is studying to become a Paramedic.

It’s not easy being a single parent, working full time, taking care of the house and the dog.

It’s not easy being the Dad away from your daughter and wife, I am sure of that.

Last Wednesday (Jan 18th) I BBM’d Saï to see if we would skype at our usual time; he wrote back “won’t be able to tonight”. Bummer I thought, he must be busy. So off Lilly and I went to play. My mother was coming down that night to help out and after Lilly’s bath I noticed she pulled in the driveway. Then I noticed another car backing into our driveway – it was Saï. He was home – so much better then skyping.  Saï was home for a week 🙂

Lilly was really excited to see her father. The hugs and kisses were everywhere.

It’s been great to have him home – helping with nappy changes, morning routine, walking the dog – it’s like we are a tag team getting it all taken care of.

It’s also been wonderful to watch them together; reading books on the comfy couch, eating dinner at her small table, learning and saying new words, playing with her “baby”, getting dressed for outside play.

I melt each time when she runs over to him and sticks out her lips for a kiss, or when she wraps her arms around his long legs for a hug or the laughter that comes from her when he’s tickling her or giving her “BEE-BO” a raspberry. SHE’S SO HAPPY!

This morning she woke up at 4am and we couldn’t get her back to sleep – so in the bed she came. I got up to get ready for work at 6:30 and they stayed in bed. When I came back to them still in bed she had her arms above her head snuggled right beside him – pure bliss. She woke up happy. When Saï picked her up from the sitters, she saw him and said “Daddyyyyy” – she was happy when she came home and she was happy at bath time.

I know it’s not easy being a single parent, I really don’t enjoy it and commend those who are.

Life. Is. So. Much. Better. When. We. Are. Together, as a Family.

What I am learning is how hard it is for that other parent who is away from their child. You miss a lot; reading books, new words/games, bath and bed time, laughs and giggles, daily hugs and kisses. So I have to remember when I AM having a hard day with Lilly – HE is not able to see her, play with her, help her, hug or kiss her. The good thing is I know this will come to an end and getting an education is important – I am really proud of you.

Saï, you are sitting beside me as I write this, and I miss you already.

xo I love you Saï.

I LAWU OU DADDY, Thanks for taking me out for a sleigh ride. xo Lilly Mae.