Ever have one of those days when you feel you’ve taken on too much; you thought you could pull it all together; you thought you’ve done it before why can’t I do it again? Well, I’ve been having lots of those days….recently. And I keep tell myself I will slow down, I won’t commit to anything next month….I.WILL.RELAX. Ha! That hasn’t happened.
It doesn’t help that I only get 5-6 hours of sleep a night…oh and that’s not clumped all together. That’s 1.5 hours here, 2 hours there and maybe, just MAYBE if I am lucky 3 hours in a row. The girls have me up lots 😦 With my husband working in another Province now, I am on my own with both girls for most of the week. Granted, Lilly goes to Day Care 3-4 days of the week but those other 3-4 days of the week are by far the hardest for me. I’m totally fine being with both, cooking meals and bed time. It’s the 3-year-old tantrums and constant not listening to me that’s challenging.
During all of this over the last few months I’ve been balanced being a mom, wife, bridesmaid; had Lilly’s birthday party; attended 3 birthday parties for Lilly’s friends; traveled to my parents an hour away just for the day and over night; participated in the Mud Hero Run, hit up the Zoo once; driven Lilly to Day Care and picked her up almost every day – all with poor Hilary in tow. I’ve tried to blog and contribute to TOTS Family Blog once a month. Thanks goodness my parents and sister love taking care of our dog for long periods of time.
I’ve tried really hard to workout 4-5 days of the week until two weeks ago when I just had to cut something out to “get by”. Clearly but cutting out my workouts/running, it has taken a tole on me physically and mentally. Bad decision Anna, bad decision, I need that shit in my life!
And that’s why I signed up for the Mud Hero (July) and Run or Dye (Sept) because I need an outlet and I need to be active. Leading up to these events I get stressed out and think WHY? WHY, did I do this again? Why am I dragging my kids around so I can be active. Thank GAWD I have some amazing family and friends who help me out and a husband who encourages me to get out for a run when he is home.
Then an awesome email came into my inbox on my birthday! I had won two entries to the Run for Women run in Halifax on August 10th, yeah, pretty awesome birthday score! I knew right away that I wanted to be apart of it but my heart was also telling me to slow down and think about it. Can I really pull off a 5k or 10k at 8:30am in the morning with both girls in tow (babysitter needed) and all while traveling to Halifax???
I registered anyway with a good friend of mine I don’t see very often (double bonus). I’ve have mixed emotions about this run and feeling like I’m taking on too much and then I think I’ll rest later this month! WHO AM I KIDDING? I won’t.
I want both my girls to come to this event. Even though Hilary will only be 8 months old and Lilly 3-years-old – I want them to see this event, I want them to see me run, I want them to see all the other women and girls running. I want to be a role model for them and that overpowers the feelings of “I take on too much”. Some day, I want to run with my daughters (maybe I’ll even start a mother-daughter run with my job when I return….). I want to watch them run….I want to see their faces when they’ve crossed the finish line and realize that they accomplished something awesome.
I’ll rest next month………….. 🙂
Do you take on too much?
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I can totally relate! I take on too much on a daily basis. Even when I have time off or a vacation, my mind is racing.
Yeah, usually I’m okay for the first little bit of any vacation but as it comes to an end my mind starts racing too!
Oh my goodness. My life is taking on too much! We live in a society where we have to be superwomen. Women’s Lib probably did a lot for progress, but I think it caused more problems for women in the long run. I have four kids, a p/t job as a support worker, an at home business. During the school year I was also my daughters preschool class coordinator, and finished a writing course sometime in April. My health was definitely giving as a workout was not in the cards. Now I’m trying to get back at it after I had surgery last November. I need to learn to set boundaries and say no. Starting this Saturday I’m working Sat to Sat. I’m hoping to get some running in there somewhere as it really helps me not go bananas on everyone.
What do I give up? I finished my writing program, then I finished off the school year. Then, I put my business on the back burner as I’m just really starting up and it’s not my big money earner. Yet. then silly me took on way too many extra shifts.
busy or stressful? My husband shoves me out the door to run lol
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