You Can Do Everything Right Only To Have It All Go Wrong

Where do I start?

I sprained my foot. I can’t even put an explanation mark after that as I just don’t have the oumph to do so. Let me back it up a bit.

Last Sunday, I ran an awesome 18k with Krystol. Great pace, great conversations, nice route – really it couldn’t have been any better. Woke up Monday with lots of pain in my right foot when I walked; all day. Same thing Tuesday. Went to the hospital, got an xray – no stress fracture, no broken bone and no advice other then it will eventually get better. Meh!

Stayed off my foot Wednesday, went for a bike ride Thursday night and didn’t notice anything wrong with my foot. Friday, my foot was fine so we drove to Halifax to visit my family and for me to attempt a run.

The plan was 19k, in reality I was hoping for 10k and test out my foot as it was feeling better. Nope, not the case. At 2.7k I had crazy pain, turned around and walked home. I got cold after a while and started running – no pain, so I kept going.

Around 8k all I could think of was how easy this run felt. How I felt like I was gliding over the pavement as the sun was beating down on me. I thought about how HARD my runs were at the beginning of this training cycle – man did I struggle with 5k. When did 10k become easy for me because I surely didn’t see that coming. I alsoΒ didn’t see pain in my foot coming either.

At 9.3k I had shooting pain to the point that I couldn’t walk. I took a few minutes and walked up a hill and then passed my old Elementary school and called home….“can you please come pick me up, I can’t walk”.

With tears rolling down my face I sat on the curb and saw a man run by me twice. I saw how hard he was working for his run and I’m sure it was awesome with the look he had on his face. My upcoming half marathon came into my thoughts and I cried a little more. FUCK! What have I done?

After months of being injured with my hamstring, now this. Why me? Why now? What did I do wrong? I’ll probably never know when it actually happened. I called my husband and emailed my running buddy, Krystol….both feeling terrible I was in so much pain.

I was in A LOT of pain; shooting pain and worse then before. I asked my sister to take me to the hospital so I could get it looked at … again. Yes, again. God love my sister, she drove me there and waited with me for 3-4 hours – thank you, Laura….I’m sure it’s not the way you really wanted to spend your Saturday morning or hours hanging out with me. The beach would have been the better choice.

In the end, I have a sprained foot/torn ligaments and can’t do anything but rest it. Light activity for a few days and judge how it’s feeling vs running. Take an Ibuprofen for the pain and maybe some Physiotherapy will help. The Doctor also called me a “high-endurance athlete”… ha ha, that made my sister proud and me laugh.

I had lots of thoughts go through my head. Is my half marathon out the door? Will I even go to Maritime Race Weekend? Should I volunteer? What if I walk the 5k? I wanted to dress like a pirate and be apart of the running community darn it, but could I/should I go? Would I even enjoy myself or just feel sorry and cry more?

anna sept 5th run

I also posted my run on Facebook, Twitter and IG – cause that’s what we blog runners do and they are all linked together. Not for attention, not for comments, not for anything but sharing my run of the day. What I wasn’t expecting was people I haven’t met in person but have built relationships online to respond with such caring thoughts. Which lead me to writing this post….with tears rolling down my face.

I’m so disappointed, so frustrated and so sad. I’ve worked hard to get stronger, to feeling good about my running after being injured for so long. Don’t get me wrong, I 100% understand that this is a minor thing to have happen with everything else going on in the world and am thankful for all I have. But…I am sad and should be allowed to feel this way (and write about it – this is my blog after all).

Luckily, I booked an appointment with my Physiotherapist a little bit ago for my hammy that’s been *a little* tender – nothing major. I’m hoping he’ll be able to give me a little direction and advice as to what do to.Β I’m confident I will not run my half marathon next weekend which is very disappointing.

You can do everything right in a training cycle only to have it all go wrong at the end. Frig. I feel like I did everything right and pushed it when I could. Today, I can wobble on my foot but it’s sore and not great. I was encourage to do “light activity” today so looks like i’ll be going for an easy walk.

Oh man I’m disappointed.

PiperΒ 

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46 thoughts on “You Can Do Everything Right Only To Have It All Go Wrong

  1. You can do everything right yet be wrong.. I know how you feel. I woke up with a swollen feet today and it hurts to walk. I went on a pushy pushy 10k yesterday and felt… oh-kai the rest of the day…. my half mara is in 6 weeks and after everything I’ve put on I am not all that keen on giving up… but I am about to… about to going back to run for fun… and forgetting it all. I don’t know. Maybe tomorrow I’ll be better.. maybe not… but it all feels a bit weird at the minute. Sending big hugs your way xo xo

  2. Sometimes when we are injured it feels like it is never going to get better. I know how incredibly frustrating it can be. I have most definitely had the when it rains it pours injury bouts. I’m so sorry. My fingers are crossed that it heals quickly friend!

    • Thank you Sarah. I was so upset Saturday/Sunday but am feeling better about my foot. Managed a short 4k run last night without any pain. However, I’m confident running a half this weekend would not be a good idea. I’m looking forward to handing out medals and enjoying the day.

  3. So very sorry for this latest disappointing injury. I know you will do whatever it takes to heal… even if that means giving up your upcoming event. πŸ™‚

  4. Injury always sucks, but remember, there will ALWAYS be another race. For now, rest and do something else you enjoy. You’ll get over this, I promise!

  5. Oh no! There’s nothing I can say to make you feel better, so I’ll just say that this totally sucks but that you will get through this. It’s hard when it happens before a big race, but it sounds like you have options. I hope you feel better soon!

  6. So sorry, this really sucks. I really hope you heal quickly and can feel happy with your running soon. It’s sad you will miss your half. 😦 Maybe pick a new race and set new goals so you have something to look forward to while you heal. ((((Hugs!!!!))))

  7. Oh my goodness. I am so sorry to hear this! Ughhhh! I was tearing up reading your post because I am very injury prone and have thought many of those same things. What did I do to deserve this? Etc. In 2013, I had a femoral stress fracture in the spring, healed and trained through summer and ended up with a tibial stress fracture before I could run my fall marathons. It was awful. I want to say there is a reason for everything but that just plain BLOWS. I’m thinking of you for sure and keeping my fingers crossed for a quick recovery!

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  9. Anna,
    I’m sorry you are injured. To a runner any niggle as The Princess Runner, Allison says isas bad as what it happening in the world. Our world is running because it is what we love and gets us through the hard times and the good times.
    As for volunteering or walking the 5k…I would say do both if you can. Dress up like a pirate even if you don’t walk. Go cheer the other runners on and feel the energy. It may help and it could hurt but it maybe good overall.
    I wish I could wave my magic wand and help you.
    Thinking of you and sending hugs.

    • Kyla, thank you for your message, it couldn’t have come at a better time. You are right…running is our world and I do love running and everything that comes with it (minus injuries). I’m volunteering Friday night 5-9 and Saturday 6-11am handing out medals. I’m really looking forward to it and feel the energy. It will be great to put medals around the heads of friends I know and friends I’ve met online…not something everyone gets to do. I’m sure i’ll shed a few tears but I’m human πŸ™‚ Thanks again.
      My foot is feeling better, did a slow 4k and 5k with tape on it…not too sure I want to take the tape off any time soon πŸ˜‰
      Hope you have a lovely weekend!

      • That’s what friends are for.
        Putting medals on friends and strangers afterwards will be great. You will see so many emotions and things you wouldn’t have seen if you were running.
        You will have those memories of the day and can think of them next year when you get to run. πŸ™‚
        I’m volunteering tomorrow at a race and looking forward to the day. It should be a beauty.
        Enjoy in your own way tomorrow. πŸ™‚

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