April Runfessions 2018

I almost missed Runfessions for the month! Well, let’s be honest – I missed it since it’s normally posted on the last Friday of each month and it Sunday as I write this.

Runfession #1: I’m not loving running right now. It’s hard and many times during my runs I hate it. However, not all running is easy or should be easy. Though I’m roughly following a training plan and missed 10 days due to the flu…running is friggin’ hard for me right now. We are not friends but I’m still running.

Runfession #2: I’m so thankful I push myself to run when I don’t want to. Be it stubbornness or determination or commitment, I dunno. I’m glad I push myself to run when I don’t want to, to run when I’m not loving it and to just keep putting one foot in front of the other.

I sure look the part of a happy runner here…and this was after I fell down on the trail with Carmacks.


Runfession #3: Normally, I track my monthly mileage and know exactly where I am at any day of the week. However, this month (and last) I’ve barely paid attention to my numbers. This month, possibly due to the flu I just haven’t even cared what my mileage is at and only know because I sat down and counted it all up this morning.  I’m not breaking any records or heck, even meeting my monthly goals at all (post to come in a few days) but I got in some km’s.

Runfession #4: Though I’m signed up for a half marathon in three weeks time, I have no other races I’m signed up for. I’ve thought of a few, one in June but I’m just not as keen as I once was to sign up for races this year. Which brings me to my next runfession.

Runfession #5: There is a possibility that I’m done running half marathons! Potentially for this year or maybe longer. I have not falling in love with running during this training cycle and am really wondering if the half marathon distance is for me. Don’t get me wrong, I’m running a half marathon in three weeks but it’s like my heart just isn’t into the distance right now. Who knows, maybe I’ll sign up for another one but I might be done with the distances for a while. Only time will tell.

What are you runfessing this month?

Have you given up on a certain distances?

Do you know how many km/miles you have run or just add it up at the end of the month?

Runfessions are shared on the last Friday of the month and is hosted by Marcia at Marcia’s Healthy Slice! You can check out her blog and read about lots of other blogger’s Runfessions in her link up!

6 thoughts on “April Runfessions 2018

  1. I usually don’t do halfs, but last year I did three. I’ve got one coming up in 3 weeks, but still prefer the 10M distance. Maybe you’ll find joy in running again when the pressure is off?

  2. I’m confessing that I’ve run more kilometers this month than I ever have, but I think I’ve discovered I’m not a racer, just a recreational runner out there burning off what I bake!

  3. I think it’s great you’re being honest with yourself that you’re not totally loving running right now. I have yet to get back into running since having my twins and I don’t know why I’m not pumped to get back at it. I guess I just know it will always be there for me when I’m ready. I’m also kind of intimidated that it will be hard (of course it will be!)

  4. I think it’s great that you are taking time to reflect and giving yourself the grace to say “Hey, I don’t know if this is for me right now.” Hope that you find a training plan or race distance that brings you joy soon!

  5. I get the “not feeling” running thing. I haven’t run well in a long time. Lost recently I’m coming back from injury and basically running the miles I feel like be it 5 or 2. No sense in putting pressure on, right? I won’t go so far as to say I’m quitting any certain distance but I wanna run on my terms right now. Thanks for linking. Better late than never. 😀

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