I almost missed Runfessions for the month! Well, let’s be honest – I missed it since it’s normally posted on the last Friday of each month and it Sunday as I write this.

Runfession #1: I’m not loving running right now. It’s hard and many times during my runs I hate it. However, not all running is easy or should be easy. Though I’m roughly following a training plan and missed 10 days due to the flu…running is friggin’ hard for me right now. We are not friends but I’m still running.

Runfession #2: I’m so thankful I push myself to run when I don’t want to. Be it stubbornness or determination or commitment, I dunno. I’m glad I push myself to run when I don’t want to, to run when I’m not loving it and to just keep putting one foot in front of the other.

I sure look the part of a happy runner here…and this was after I fell down on the trail with Carmacks.

Runfession #3: Normally, I track my monthly mileage and know exactly where I am at any day of the week. However, this month (and last) I’ve barely paid attention to my numbers. This month, possibly due to the flu I just haven’t even cared what my mileage is at and only know because I sat down and counted it all up this morning.  I’m not breaking any records or heck, even meeting my monthly goals at all (post to come in a few days) but I got in some km’s.

Runfession #4: Though I’m signed up for a half marathon in three weeks time, I have no other races I’m signed up for. I’ve thought of a few, one in June but I’m just not as keen as I once was to sign up for races this year. Which brings me to my next runfession.

Runfession #5: There is a possibility that I’m done running half marathons! Potentially for this year or maybe longer. I have not falling in love with running during this training cycle and am really wondering if the half marathon distance is for me. Don’t get me wrong, I’m running a half marathon in three weeks but it’s like my heart just isn’t into the distance right now. Who knows, maybe I’ll sign up for another one but I might be done with the distances for a while. Only time will tell.

What are you runfessing this month?

Have you given up on a certain distances?

Do you know how many km/miles you have run or just add it up at the end of the month?

Runfessions are shared on the last Friday of the month and is hosted by Marcia at Marcia’s Healthy Slice! You can check out her blog and read about lots of other blogger’s Runfessions in her link up!