The Joy of Children (not just your own)

When you plan on having children you never expect the outcomes that will happen besides sleepless nights, dirty diapers, spit up everywhere and toys crunching under your feet in the middle of the day OR night!

What I wasn’t really expecting but has developed into this amazing group of friends/families and kids was a play group from our prenatal class! There was 7 of us in our prenatal class in March of 2010 and we try to get the whole group together once or twice a year which is always great. We also had a smaller group of 4 that got together regularly during that first year.

Four Christmases

What amazes me and what I wasn’t prepared for was the love that these kids have for each other. They simply LOVE one another. I feel very lucky to witness it and be apart of this little group of friends. This is what having kids is all about.

As a child I loved Christmas until I got older and it changed. I’m not talking about Santa, I’m talking about when my Grandmother was no longer with us and then 2 years later on Boxing Day we lost my Grandfather. Christmas was just another day spent with family, giving and receiving gifts. It was lovely but it wasn’t the same.

I find myself more excited about Christmas as our girls get older and because of their friends. The excitement in their eyes, the joy in writing a letter to Santa and then receiving one back and the magic that sits int he palm of their hands is the spirit of Christmas (to me). I love that Lilly has had these friends since they day they were all born and hope she get’s to spend many more years playing, growing and celebrating Christmas with them.

Happy Christmas Eve! 

Happy Birthday Sweet Hilary

A full year gone by…just…like….that!

Hilary Elise

Hilary Elise – 7 hours old 🙂

Tears, laughter, joy, little sleep, lots of nursing, first smiles, coo’s, cuddling and moments of frustration.

Kisses on your head, your toes, your hands and poking your face, Lillian couldn’t get enough of you.

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Then sitting up, crab crawling and following your BIG sister around with such love it was oozing out of you.

You are such a sweet little girl who loves to dance, play with her big sister, talk, discover how to play with toys and be outside.

I wouldn’t change anything this past year…okay, maybe just a little more sleep and Daddy home all the time. I will miss our days together, lunches with no one else around, taking you running to see if you’ll sleep …. when really, I know you just want to look at the world around you.

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Most of all, I’ll just miss spending all my time with you.

I love you sweet Hilary Elise.

Happy 1st Birthday. 

Hilary’s 11 month update here

*12 month update to come next week*

Five Things Friday

This Elf 4 Health challenges has opened my eyes a little:

1. Unroll.Me – fantastic app/website that un-subscribes you from any/all email list you want. Look it up!

2 – a: When your body is stressed out it will take the good out of you. I need intense workouts 1-2 days of the week. I just need to run, don’t get me wrong the yoga, walking and climbing extra stairs this week was nice but I just need some fast paced workout. Sure happy I have a soccer game tomorrow night and I am planning on packing my running gear for work on Monday.

2 – b: The girls are in their beds and I’ve got to clean the house, prep more for the party, do the typical dishes/laundry and in between all that, I plan on doing a few rounds of squats, sit-ups, jumping-jacks, my new bird-dog move, tricep dips, and russian twists. This should be interesting and I’m going to time it on my watch to see how long I end up “working out”.  #FallintoFitness30DayChallenge.

Other things…..

3. I spent quality time with my biggest girl today…wrote a letter to Santa, made cup cakes, cake and other food for Hilary’s party tomorrow. We also did some crafts for Hilary’s party …. party favours … polka dot theme.

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4. I don’t like planning children’s birthday parties. Totally thought I’d be all over it but in reality I don’t love it. To be fair, my husband is away and was away for Lilly’s party last June, so I’m doing it all on my own. Not fun 😦 Oh well, the good news is that Sai will be home for Hilary’s party tomorrow and I’ve got some good vegan and non-vegan eats. Keeping it simple for my own sanity.

5. The next week is going to be intense (Sat to Sat): birthday party, soccer game, Lilly’s soccer, I start work, personal event happening, I’m back at work and I travel for work two days next week, Sai is away….oh man, I am already looking forward to next Friday! HA!

What’s happening in your world? 

Any Black Friday purchases?

Weekend events happening?

Sh*t, Reality Set In Yesterday

Urgh!

I go back to work in a week. I’m totally cool with that…I’ve had a fantastic year on maternity leave with Hilary. We’ve had our ups and downs but kept going and now here we sit…well, actually, she’s sleeping and I’m standing at the computer right now. But that’s not the point. I dropped into work today to sign some papers, find out about next week’s meetings, get my keys and to try to remember my work passwords etc.

stressed out at work

I left the office and came home and just felt like crap…I may have shed a tear or two. Not because I don’t like my work. Not because I’m not ready to leave Hilary at day care with BIG sister Lilly. But because I had a moment of “What am I getting myself into” AND “Can I really do this job again”?

Frig!

I feel under-qualified for the job.

I feel like the job is way beyond me.

I feel like I have no idea what I was getting into.

In reality, I’ve held the job for 5 years (minus 2 mat. leaves) and feel that I’ve done a good job in the past. I’ve never been told I’m doing something terribly wrong or that I’m not up to speed on current physical activity data.

After being off work for the last year, I’m not up to speed on current data and who know’s, I’ll probably make a few mistakes when I return. Just checking my email is a task in itself. I couldn’t even remember my username or password today. Thank God the tech support I talked to was super awesome and loved to talk about his 15 month old grandson….he made me happy.

I am slightly sad that I won’t get to spend ALL my time with my girl(s).

I am nervous about trying to get out the door, drop the girls off and to work on time.

I’m not looking forward to getting my girls on a new routine and the meltdowns that lie ahead of us.

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My head space right now is what are we eating this week, when did Hilary nap, is the laundry clean in the washing machine, when is Lilly’s next play date, walk Maclean, is the fire still going and when did I workout last?

It’s not in work mode.

I know I’ll get there in the end. I know I’ll start absorbing the current data. I know I have a lot to learn (again). And I know it will all come back to me eventually.

But man, Shi*t hit really the fan yesterday.

Bye Bye Mat. Leave….You’ve been good to us.